The survey says...Clear. Now, it hasn't given me an answer but! I could take it as good news that nothing is wrong with my nerves and all and I can ruled that part of my body out. However, the Nurse is referring me to a Rheumatologist, a Neurotologist and sending me for a DEXA scan.
If you dunno what those are, here ya go:
Apparently, whilst I was there the Nurse spotted my 'Tremors' this is due to my meds or me feeling anxious and I had to explain to her that even when I have nothing to be anxious about, my body will just do that.
It's the same nurse I spoke of a while back, the Head nurse who was 'stern' and I felt intimidated by. This time, she was very good and could see I wasn't looking like my 'bright' self. She was happy to hear, I'm trying to fight the pain, eat a bit more healthy and trying to get out the house when I can. (Oh and Honeykitten I told her about your rubber band method you told me about/to try out and she liked that idea <3)
So, yeah. I'm not too disappointed, it's good I don't have to worry about my nerves or anything and I'm being sent to other places who can hopefully give me some answers so
Now, thoughts and feelings wise, completely different subject. Now, have any of you ever felt like just dropping art altogether and just go play games, read books or just go watch shows? I felt like this the other day. I just wanted to push my projects, trades and special requests aside and just go play games. I know that sounds harsh and I don't mean for it to be. I felt like, I just mostly concentrate on art. Even though I'm not working on art every single day, it just felt that way. My gaming mood still has yet to return, it comes back slightly when she encourages me to play a game and I do love to read my books, plus wanna catch up on some shows.
Don't get me wrong, I understand everyone I owe art to are patient and very understanding, which I am thankful for. Just to add, I didn't dwell on this thought, it just came into my mind had a roam around and left. I then just carried on with what I was currently doing. But, tell me.. is it wrong for me to feel that way? To just want to drop art and go do other things? Should I... just do it? Let me know your thoughts.
Speaking of arts.. I has another commission update! The commission journal itself, as I said is nearly
finished. However, I am considering, maybe, opening my commissions at the end of March or beginning of April. Reason is for 2 things:
1. On April 8th, Windows XP users are not going to receive anymore updates or packages. Which can leave them at risk for virus's and not having 'up-to-date' applications. I am a Windows XP user and honestly.. I have been wanting a new computer for some time now. I need better RAM and graphics and just better everything. Of course, I am looking to get Windows 7 as I've heard Windows Vista & 8 are shit.
2. I am wanting to save up for flight tickets/spending money to go see my Jak & Dax buddy MagicalMoonChild
. She's been my friend since, well, when I had my first computer Windows.. I think 98? And of course been my friend since the year Jak & Daxter was released and I think it's about time me and her meet in the flesh. However, flying to America can be pricey, depending what month you go and I made a promise to her that I'll do my best to come to America and see her
So, once I get my commission journal fully finished, they'll be open at the end of March or the beginning of April.
People who I am trading with or I owe a 'special request' too, even if I do open commissions, I can assure you, I'll still work on what I owe you. Thank you for your patience
Take cares Dudes & Dolls, love and hugs to you all!